1988 the year I was on my own

          Year 1988 was the year , where I was on my own. No one was there to say anything or to suggest   anything as I  controlled my life fully 7 by 24 fo rthe first time in my life when I was away away from  my siblings. Earlier life was controlled by all my siblings  and at the same time I was performing my task of playing the role of nanny, Teacher, daughter, sister and aunt. Day and night my time was occupied either in school or in the house doing A to Z. Hardly sleep 4 hours daily. Early morning woke up at 4 am and at night slept at 12 am, this was my routine until I was transferred  to Ipoh after registered to get married.

      
        From 1988 January till November, I controlled my life, expenses and everything because I was away from my siblings but staying with my 3^rd brother in Ipoh. My brother most of the time was out station and away from home, So I was all by my self from marketing and attending extra classes. College life that year was the final year and I realized how much fun  I have missed in my life. I was surprised to see many of my course mates were so happy and jolly where else I was burdened unnecessarily with family responsibilities  in the presence of my older siblings, where I was taking care of my sisters children as a full time nanny.

          
        College days in Seremban, Raja Melewar were the most happiest moments in life where I was on my own away from everyone and no one was there to nag or to control, for the first time in my life I was like a bird which has just grown its wings with feathers and started to fly it was a beautiful feeling being on my own. I pursued my hobbies and interest such as athletics and reading. Daily many many hours of reading all the news papers in college library. 

     The house which  I was renting  , shared with 15 other class mates, It was  a double story terrace house with four rooms and 2 bathrooms. All my housemates were very sporting, and we almost every day had fun in the house either ball room dancing or sharing jokes and disturbing the other girls. My group of friends range  age from  24 to 34. Few were married with school going kids, where else, few of us  engaged and away from our fiancees. We had several prewedding courses given by the most senior ladies. 

    We the young ones blushed with the  exposure given to us by one of our older housemate. We try to escape from the senior lady by giving excuses but she did not let us go. There were times, I was very angry with the senior friend for being very frank with us.

         
     The quality time in Raja Melewar was only five solid months, and in these 5 months I didn’t visit any of my siblings, because I was very far away and the travelling journey takes almost  one day to reach my home, and all my brothers were married and settled in life and mother passed away beginning of the year, so I do not want to be an intruder to my married siblings. The same year My fifth brothers wife gave birth to their 2^nd boy in KL and since  Cheras in KL is much nearer to Seremban, I visited my brothers baby boy and went back the same day to Seremban.

       
      Two of my brothers visited me during my stay in Seremban and even asked me if I have visited my family members during one week break, Every one went back home during one week semester break except me and one of the house mate who was on due to deliver her baby, because her husband was  visiting  her from Kuantan. My 2nd brother who  lived in Kuantan and my fifth brother who was in KL visited me, they  gave me  Rm 50 and  with that money I bought a pair of ‘Power’  jogging shoes and trained almost every evening in the college field.

         
       I was advised by one of the college athletic coach Mr. Jaswant Singh to train with the boys, so I can compete in bigger tournaments. I was running with the men trainees almost everyday. But the full time girls were jealous of my performance and commitments, They told me, since I have been there only for  few months , I cant join the college team to participate in ‘ pestarama’ which held in that year in Kuantan. They boys told me that im going but the girls said, I cant join that group, I respect their word and thought that's the truth and did not even asked the coach about the girls decision.

     The coach also did not say anything to me, he would have thought that I was not interested but I was really committed and performed far better then any of those girls in all the running events from 100 meters to 3000 meters, in 5 months time I became very famous in this college and  most of the college staff and students know me because of my  athletics performance  and my creative writings.

          
          I joined the creative writing club in college. Loneliness  drawn me to reading and writing. This particular year I wrote about my childhood days,  my father’s absence and my mothers death. Thefeelings of depression, helplessness and loneliness, made me pour my  feelings into writing, I was even  thinking of applying   posting in Seremban. But sincde I was engaged to my husband, I called my brother and asked him, he told me to do as I wish and said that I’m legally married to my husband . I applied to join my husband at his working place in 88 with that, marriage certificate and the same year end my posting was  at  my  husbands place.